"Nightmares of a Monstrous" Past

The air was warm and muggy. It was a warm summer night and the sky was clear. The smell of fire thickened the air. For any normal person it would’ve almost seemed difficult to breathe. Alex stood in the middle of a road in Paris, France dressed in a black skirt and a red and black leather bustier. The streets were lined with people screaming and running for their lives. Something was after them, and it was gaining ground quick.

Alex looked up at the stars and then over at the illuminated Eiffel Tower. She closed her eyes and sniffed the air. The smell of fear and desperation were in the air. Just then something within Alex clicked and she swept her head down and looked to the side with an evil smile. Her fangs gleamed in the pale light of the night combined with the soft glow of streetlights. Something caught her scent and made her mouth water. She craved this, need the blood that was calling her name. Alex took a step forward and continued to walk past the crowd of screaming people on the cobbled street. Alex swayed slightly as she walked, high off the scent that was drawing her. It seemed as if she had no control, she was like a zombie as she walked. Just then she stopped. Alex looked around puzzled. She had lost the scent. She sniffed the air again to see if it was possible to find it again, and found it. Her eyes turned a bright crimson and she spun quickly to her right, towards a dimly lit alleyway. Alex stealthily walked to the opening to the alley. When she reached the alley she saw a man trembling in the corner in the very back. It was a dead end. What was he doing here? If he was hiding, this was the stupidest place to hide. “Trapped like a rat.” Alex said devilishly. He looked up at the sound of Alex’s voice.

“Alexandria?” he asked terrified. “What happened to you?” he asked as his voice trembled. Alex looked her love in his piercing blue eyes and smiled a hellish smile. “I’m just being who I’ve always been Jacques.” Alex said as she licked her fangs. “Now sit still this is only going to hurt for a second.” She said calmly and then laughed. Jacques stood up and looked Alex deep into her eyes as she walked towards him slowly. What happened to his love? What was she doing? As Alex got closer Jacques found the courage to say what would be his last words. He looked Alex dead into her eyes with so much love and warmth and uttered just three words. “I love you.” He said in a whisper that only they both could hear. Alex cocked her head n smiled then she lunged towards Jacques.

“NO!” Alex screamed as she shot up from her bed with her eyes still closed. Xander was across the room watching TV and rushed to his sister’s side and grabbed her into his arms. She was shaking almost violently.

“Lex it’s ok. It’s ok.” Xander kept whispering to her as he rocked her to calm her down. Alex was on the verge of tears and looked up at her twin brother. Xander looked down at Alex wit h a serious face of concern.

“Another bad dream?” he asked. Alex nodded slowly. “The same one?” he asked again. Alex shook her head and pointed to his pouch of blood. He handed it to her and she took a long sip. She swallowed and let out a small “Ahhh”.

“Then what dream was it, Lex?” he asked sternly. Alex looked up at Xander with fear and regret in her eyes. She shivered and let out one single word.

“Jacques.” She said in a low whisper as she hung her head down low. Xander’s eyes became very wide and let out a small sigh.

“You’ve never had that one before had you?” he asked. Alex really didn’t feel like answering any questions right now so she shook her head slightly. She put her face in her hands and breathed deeply. She needed to get it together. She knew taking a nap after telling Xander everything about Damian would have some effect on her. She looked at the clock on her night table and looked at the time. It was only 1pm. That makes sense since she got back home at 7am. She looked at the clock in a trance for a little bit trying to recollect the events between the time she talked to Xander to now. Just as she was remembering her cell phone rang. Xander looked at her curiously. “What do you need that for?” he asked. Alex shushed him and answered.

“Hello.” She answered casually.

“Hey Alex it’s John.” The male voice replied. John. He was the really cute guy in her music engineering class; they both majored in Recorded music. He was tall, around 6’4” and had really nice milk chocolate caramel skin. He also had an accent that was country that every girl thought was cute.

“Hey John what’s up?” Alex asked. She and John had become friends when he forgot his notes in his dorm room and Alex helped him out. Since then they’d been study partners, project partners, etc.

“I was just calling to see if you were ok. You weren’t in class today.” He said concerned. John was a sweet country boy. Momma raised him right. Alex thought to. “No, I’m fine. My brother came to town and I wasn’t feeling too good today so I didn’t come to class. Did I miss anything?” she asked him casually. Their friendship was simple and safe. To Alex that was very comforting in more ways than one.

“Yeah a lot, but don’t worry I took really good notes so you won’t be behind. This time you’re gonna need my notes instead of the other way around. That is if you can read my handwriting.” John laughed.

“I’m sure I’ll be able to figure ‘em out. Nothing’s too illegible for me.” She laughed.

“Ok. Well if you’re feeling up to it, do you want to stop by later and pick ‘em up so you’re not behind if you come to class tomorrow?” John asked. Alex wanted to say no and skip classes for the rest of the semester while Damian was around, but school, writing, and music were the only things keeping her sane, aside from Alaska.

“Sure. I’ll meet you at the food court at 8.”

“Great. See ya then.” They both hung up. Xander looked at her with a sly smile.

“So who’s that, your boyfriend?” He asked teasingly.

“No. He’s my friend and that’s it.” Alex knew she was lying. She had some kind of feelings for john, but that was dangerous and she couldn’t act on them even if she wanted to. She wasn’t stable, she wasn’t safe, hell she wasn’t human. She figured if they stayed friends no one would get hurt. Her last boyfriend was now stalking her, and the last human she’d loved she ripped his throat out just for kicks and giggles. She was a heartless monster and she’d promise she’d never go back. She refused to put John or anyone in that situation ever again. She swore to never have any human, lover or friend, end up like Jacques. She couldn’t have anyone else’s blood on her hands. She couldn’t deal with another Jacques, not now, not ever.

"One Door Opens....."

Alex drove for what seemed forever. She had a lot to think about. Damian was back and she didn’t know why. She didn’t know anything, but she did know was that it wasn’t anything good. Damian wasn’t anything good and neither was anything he brought with him. She knew how Damian was and she never wanted to relive that ever again. “You cannot escape who you are” echoed throughout her mind. Alex didn’t want to remember who she was. Escaping is what she was trying to do. She knew that she had to stay away from Damian and stop whatever he was trying to do. “Stupid vampire exes!” she said aloud to herself as she kept driving. She didn’t have the luxury of looking out the window to watch the transformation of her surroundings change. Actually, everything was a blur. It looked like picture was taken as the car was speeding to the destination. This is why she knew springing for the R8 would come in handy.

Alex finally reached her driveway and parked her car in front of the house. She just wanted to get inside so she could think and sort things out. She needed a nice warm pouch of B+ and a crazy straw. Alex smiled a small smile at the thought of drinking B+ in a very negative situation. With that thought in her head she went in the house. Alaska wasn’t there to greet her as he always had been. “Hmm guess he didn’t hear me pull up.” She thought aloud. Alex called for her furry companion but he didn’t come. “Alaska, here boy.” she called again. Now she was worried. He always came when called. He was always at the door. Just then Alex got a very unsettling feeling in her stomach. She sniffed the air and smelled a scent that was familiar. Was it Damian? No he wouldn’t be that stupid to show up here at her home. Or would he? There’s never any way to tell with a crazy vampire in love, especially when that vampire was Damian. Alex sniffed the air again. No it wasn’t Damian, but she knew this scent. She carefully went up the stairs to her bedroom to look for Alaska. As she went up the stairs the scent got stronger. When she reached her room her stomach clenched. She slowly placed her hand on the doorknob and turned it just as slow. She slowly and carefully opened the door. When she had the door open far enough to see inside she gasped as she saw someone on her bed petting Alaska.

“Hey Alexandria.” He greeted with a smile. Alex let out a low growl and rolled her eyes. She didn’t have time for this. What was this? “Get on Alex’s Nerves Day”? Why did everyone decide to pop up today? Alex collected her thoughts and spoke.

“Hello Xander.” She greeted flatly as she watched Xander pet and play with Alaska. Xander was the last person besides Damian she wanted to deal with.

“Aww come on Lex, that’s no way to greet your brother.” Xander smiled mischievously. Any normal person would’ve been glad to see their twin brother after so long, but this was Alex, and this was Xander. They were both far from normal, and so were the circumstances. She hadn’t seen him in just as long as she’d seen Damian, what did he want now?

“It is when I haven’t seen my “brother” in almost 120 years!” she yelled angrily. Alaska jumped off the bed and trotted to her side. She was sick of her past popping up and ruining the peace that she’s managed to gain, the sanity, and humanity she’d gain during their absence.

“Calm down sis. And the air quotes around ‘brother’ hurts my feelings Lex. I’m your twin, I come in peace.” He stated calmly with a smile. Xander’s smile always was comforting. This wasn’t the case this time.

Xander was taller that Alex standing at 6’2” with a build like a basketball player, lean but muscular. His skin was the same milk chocolate brown color as Alex’s. His hair was cut into a low fade. She took in the whole look of Xander. He like Damian hadn’t changed since the last time she saw him.

“So you came and found me with him huh?” Alex asked with her arms crossed.

“What are you talkin’ ‘bout Lex? With who?” Xander asked. This time the smile was gone and was replaced with a look of genuine confusion. She didn’t buy it.

“Don’t give me that lost puppy look!”Now she was angry. “You know who I’m talking about!” she yelled.

“No I don’t! Who are you talking about?”Xander asked looking concerned.

“Damian!” she finally brought herself to say his name out loud. She figured if she didn’t say it out loud, then the scene between them never happened. He never came and turned her world upside down. Alex fell to her knees when the realization of everything that was happening caught up with her. Reality sucks. She thought to herself. In one swift motion Xander was holding her as she kneeled on the floor trembling.

“Wait, Lex, Damian’s here? Where?” He really sounded afraid now. He sounded like such the big brother, even though he was only five minutes older. She looked up at her twin. This was a different Xander than the one she left in Paris over 120 years ago. That Xander was something that she didn’t want to associate herself with.

“You mean you really didn’t know he was here?” she asked as she looked at him in the eyes.

“No. I didn’t. I haven’t seen or spoken to Damian in an entire century. I didn’t like who he became after you left. He became enraged and obsessed finding you.” He explained.

“How did you find me?” she now shifted so she was facing him. They both sat on the floor like kindergarteners looking at each other eye to eye. Just then Xander smiled.

“You’re my twin sister Lex. No matter where you go, I’m always going to find you, even when you don’t want me to.” Xander’s eyes softened and he kissed his sister’s forehead. She missed her brother dearly, and never stopped thinking about him, but she didn’t like his timing. Then again another side of her thought his timing was just right, as always.

“What took you so long to find me?” Alex asked. She was almost hurt that it took him 120 years.

“You didn’t want to be found. I picked that much up from you. You gave this illusion that you were running from anything from your past, so I listened.” Xander explained.

“So what made you want to come now?”

“Easy, you’d been having that dream again haven’t you?” Alex nodded. She hated that he could get into her head. “Well I noticed one day that it was worse than usual. Then earlier today I got a feeling that you needed me so here I am. I’ve never been too far away, just far enough away so you wouldn’t know, but close enough that I can be there at a moment’s notice.” Xander smiled and nudged her shoulder. They booth stood up and Alex hugged him.

“Thanks for coming. I really needed you.”

“No problem. You’re the only family I’ve got. Now where do you keep the blood in this place?” he asked casually. Alex looked at him confused.

“You don’t hunt anymore? Don’t tell me you’ve went vegetarian.”

“Nope, no veggies form me.” He laughed. “After you left I thought about the way things were and I stick to getting my supply from blood banks.”

“Well my brother, you’ve come to the right place. Follow me.” Alex led Xander downstairs to the kitchen while Alaska followed. She opened the refrigerator and looked at Xander. His eyes were wide with amazement.

“Now I’ve got everything from O+ to AB-. Take your pick.” Alex offered.

“I’ll take some O+ please.” Xander requested politely with a smile. “How did you get all this blood?” Now he was curious. Alex knew she couldn’t ignore him now.

“Easy, if you volunteer at the blood bank and have vampire mind control powers.” She smiled and laughed. That poor lab tech never knew what hit him. While he was dazzled by Alex’s smile and beauty she continues to stock up as he helps load it all into her car week after week. It was a pretty sweet arrangement if she didn’t say so herself, he never would remember it, and she got away with it.

“Wow I’m impressed Lex.” Xander said. Then his face turned serious. Alex took the pouches and placed them into the microwave pressed START and walked away to get them both their own crazy straw.

“Crazy straws, cute.” Xander laughed. The timer went off and she placed his pouch in front of him. She sat down and started to drink, and that same effect of her body recharging took place. She didn’t notice how all this stress was draining her until the blood hit her tongue and bounced all its sweetness around her mouth. Xander looked up at her and took a sip. He looked serious now.

“So Damian saw you today?” Alex nodded looking up from her pouch. “When? Where were you? Was he here? Does he know where you live?” She really didn’t want to answer his questions right now, but he looked serious.

“He was at my school. I thought I was being watched when I got out of my car, but I shrugged it off. I guess he was waiting for me. I’m not sure if he knows where I live since he was at my school, because I didn’t feel weird until I got there.” Alex explained. She looked deep into her twin brother’s eyes. She was looking to see if he really didn’t know about Damian. She looked harder. She didn’t find deceit, she found sincerity, and genuine concern, and then she found it. She saw a glimmer of pure terror in his eyes. He quickly tried to cover it up but it was there, she’d seen it, although brief it was there. He really didn’t know about Damian, and he was scared, like she was, about what he was capable of and what he was planning. Xander looked deep into Alex’s eyes and saw the same thing that she’d seen in his. Xander’s face hardened and became very serious.

“Lex I want you to tell me everything that you know, and I want you to tell me right now.” Alex finished her sip and started to explain to Xander everything she knew, although it wasn’t much she knew every bit helped. And at this point Damian had the upper hand, and that scared her. They needed a plan and the needed it quick before it was too late.

"The Past is Never the Past"-Part of the "Timeless" short story series

Alex stood in fear as she looked at the figure that now stood in front of her. How did he find her? How did he manage to sneak up behind her? Why was she giving him so much power over her? She’d made this same mistake not too long ago and she wasn’t going to make it again. The tension between the two of them grew stronger as they stared into each other’s eyes. His crimson eyes bore into her as if he was searching for something within her very soul. Move, do something! Say something! Her mind was screaming at her to do something. She willed herself to move, but failed. She hated this. She felt helpless, scared even. Why? She was what he was. He smiled and his fangs shone and glistened in the dark of the room. Something within her snapped. Everything boiled over and with a low growl she slammed him onto the wall and had him by the throat before he could bat an eyelash. She finally got the initiative to speak.

“Why are you here Damian?” She hissed angrily. He looked into her eyes and laughed.

“Well, look at you, fangs showin’ and all. Someone’s happy to see me.” Damian chuckled. Alex tightened her grip on Damian’s throat. She hated the fact that he dodged her question.

“Answer my question, or I will kill you!” She demanded. Damian’s smiled left his face and not that stood there was a condescending smirk.

“You’re not going to kill me. Now put me down or I won’t tell you while I’m here.” He baited. Alex loosened her grip she had on his throat and hesitantly put him down. Alex carefully stepped back and crossed her arms. She started tapping her foot rapidly as she leaned against the wall.

“Now, I let you down tell me why you’re here Damian.” This time she wasn’t scared, she was sick of his games. She always had been. With a whoosh Damian was in front of her. He grabbed Alex’s arm and put it over her head and pinned it to the wall. He gave a sly wink and smiled.

“Why do I have to have a reason to be here? Can’t a guy stop by and say hello to an old flame?” he asked as he spoke into the bend of Alex’s neck. His cool breath on her neck made her shiver slightly. Damian always knew how to get to her. She reluctantly looked into his now hazel eyes. As Alex took in all of Damian’s beauty her eyes went from his eyes to his boyishly cute face, down his 6’5”chocolate brown body. He looks good. Better than the last time I saw him. She thought to herself. YOU MUST NOT FORGET WHAT HE IS AND WHAT HE HAS DONE TO YOU AND OTHERS! The voice in her head screamed. With this thought reawakening her senses she pushed Damian off of her and out of her space.

“To answer your question, no you can’t come and see me, just because you feel like it!” Alex said in a raised whisper. “It’s been 120 years since I’ve last seen you so why are you here? It can’t be anything good.” Alex said with a little more bite and confidence. Damian looked at her and could tell that playtime was over. Then a thought came across his face and he smiled.

“Why I am here isn’t the most important question. The important question is, how did I find you after 120 years Alexandria? Or should I say Alex? I must say, if I can be honest, that name never could fit the beauty that truly exists within you.” Damian said as he paced back and forth. Alex was tired of his games. She walked over to him and stood in front of him.

“How did you find me Damian?” she asked annoyed.

“That’s the question! There we go “Alexandria, now you’re playing the game now!” Damian answered evilly as he circled Alex.

“I don’t have time for games.”

“Aww you’re no fun! Fine I’ll tell you. You used to be very creative Alexandria. Tsk tsk tsk you had me at bay for a while but then you got sloppy.”

“My name is Alex now. Alexandria is the past that I wish to keep there-in the past” Alex responded. Her body stiffened as Damian still circled her then stopped.

“Never!” he yelled angrily. “You will always be Alexandria to me and that’s never going to change. You can’t change your name and expect that all your sins are forgotten.” Damian laughed an evil laugh and looked at her again. “Actually it was your quest for retribution that led me to you. Did you really think you could out run me? Now you know me better than that. I’ve learned a lot about you in my time I spent chasing you. You’ve always wanted to be a writer I took that in combination with you middle name and compiled a list. I tracked down every single name and then I found you. Satisfied?” Damian was always a villain, but so had Alex. She shuddered at the thought of her past and spoke.

“So you found me now what? I don’t love you anymore. I’m a new person now. I’ve out grown you.” Alex answered with a false sense of confidence.

“Listen to you. “New person”, you haven’t been a person for a long time my love. And you can’t outgrow eternity. Still fighting who you are? Accept it. You did before and you were much happier.” Damian tilted his head as he looked into Alex’s eyes. He could sense that the vampire he loved was in there somewhere. Then with a whoosh had Alex pinned to the wall. She tried to squirm out but Damian was on top of her.

“Why I’m here will be revealed soon enough my love.” Damian’s eyes then traveled the course of Alex’s body. She didn’t like this at all. “You cannot escape who you are Alexandria. None of us can, and neither will this place. I will return to continue this conversation, so watch your back dear.” Damian warned. He then kissed Alex’s lips, and then her neck. Alex breathed deeply, and when she opened her eyes he was gone. Great, just great; Damian was back and she didn’t know why. “You cannot escape who you are” echoed in her head. What did he mean by that? What is his true purpose of being here? Alex glanced down at her watch and groaned. She so could not concentrate on school with Damian running around. She grabbed her keys out of her purse and headed back towards the parking lot. She climbed into her car and sped off. She had to find out what Damian was up to and quick, before something horribly bad happened, and she just couldn’t let that happen.

"Forever Is Too Long"-1st Installment in the "Timeless" short story series

The air was cool and crisp; it was filled with the scent of night and freshly fallen snow. It was December 23rd, 1632. There in the middle of a field in London, England stood a girl, no younger than 21. Her hair was long and jet black, her skin was brown as the tree bark around her. The full moon gleamed onto the snow creating a dreamy scene. The wind blew her hair as she turned quickly. She was out of breath and panting, trying to bring some air into her already burning lungs. Something was chasing her, something terrible and unseen. She heard a twig break in the quiet of her surroundings. She turned and looked into the deep darkness of the forest that surrounded her. She saw nothing. What was this? Where had she run to? She was far from her home and her family; far from the warmth of her fireplace and her safe and familiar surroundings. Another twig broke, and she looked into the night once more to see crimson red eyes staring back at her in the darkness. The hairs on the back of her neck stood up. She wanted to let out a scream but nothing came. She stood there, frozen in total and complete fear. Before she could blink the creature was on top of her and sunk its teeth deep into her neck. Her blood flowed from her neck, tainting the purity of the freshly fallen snow. She didn’t resist. She gave up fighting and laid there limp as she slipped into unconsciousness and the field around her grew darker and darker as she fell into the darkness. She kept falling, unsure if she’d ever get up again.

It was an early fall morning just outside New York City when Alexandria woke up in a cold sweat. She’s had that same dream over a hundred times and it still scared the crap out of her. She reached for her neck and rubbed over where she was bitten. “You’d think after all this time you’d be used to it.” She mumbled aloud to herself. She climbed out of bed and looked in the mirror. She looked for the bite marks that were there once there. The markings left behind by the vampire that attacked her so many years ago on that fateful night. As she rubbed her neck she wanted to cry. She never saw the face of the creature that attacked her and took her from the life that she had once known. She lost everything; her family, her friends, her home, and sometimes she felt as if her humanity was slipping away from her along with her sanity.

Alexandria was in a whole different world now. She lived in a world where vampires didn’t exist outside of books, TV shoes, and movies. Her kind was reduced to being nothing but fictional creatures. If only the humans knew just how fictional they were. Back in her century vampires were very much known and taken care of accordingly. She shook the thought of the past and looked in the mirror. She looked like she’d been dragged through hell and slapped in the face. “Ugh. If I keep having this dream I’m going to be the only vampire to look as if they aged.” She said to herself as she brushed her hair. She made her way back to her bed and glanced at the clock on her bedside table. The time blinked 4:35am on the LCD display. She shrugged and then threw herself onto her pillow and let out a groan. She hated her sleep being interrupted by stupid dreams recollecting the past. She rolled over and pulled the covers over her head as she heard nails tapping on the hardwood floor. Alex’s body stiffened as the tapping grew closer. Her door creaked open and the tapping was now in her room. She felt her bed shift due to additional weight on one side. She felt a tugging on her blanket and then it was thrown from her body.

“Very funny Alaska!” she giggled as she took her pillow and hit the Siberian husky in the face with it. If she loved anything in this world it was Alaska. Alaska was Alex’s dog. He was a purebred Siberian husky. His fur was black on top and white on the bottom, which perfectly contrasted his piercing sky blue eyes. “Guess it’s time for me to get up, huh boy?” she asked. Alaska answered with a slight nudge with his wet nose on her forehead. Alex groaned and Alaska answered with a barrage of dog kisses all over her face. “Eww! I’m up! I’m up! Now stop!” she commanded with a smile. Alaska jumped off the bed and headed out of the room. Alex then turned on her iPod and headed to the shower. Her day started now whether she liked it or not.

Alex went through her normal routine grabbed her car keys and her back pack and headed down the stairs into the kitchen. She never understood why she had this big house in the middle of nowhere and it was just her and Alaska. Then she remembered that it was safer for her to be here than in the city. Here there was no temptation to be the monster that she was forcefully turned into. The mailman left her mail in the mailbox up the road so there was only human contact when she was at school or out in the city. Here she was free to be herself and didn’t have to hide it. If she wanted to sleep in a tree she could sleep in a tree without questions being asked. Not that she would but if she wanted to she could.

She opened the refrigerator and grabbed a pouch of AB+ and made her way to the microwave. She’d been doing this for so long that she knew how long that it took get it exactly at 98.6. She punched 3:33 onto the display, placed the pouch in the microwave, pressed START and walked away to feed Alaska. When the timer dinged she went to her silverware drawer and grabbed a crazy straw. Yes, a crazy straw. She thought it made it less morbid that she was drinking blood if it was through a crazy straw. She grabbed the pouch and poked a hole in it with the straw and began to drink. Alex found it very odd to even herself that she treated a pouch of human blood like a Capri-Sun, but she shrugged the thought off and continued to drink. Donated blood wasn’t as good as fresh, but it did the trick. The warm sweet liquid slid down her throat and recharged her body like coffee does for humans. It warmed her insides like hot chocolate with a hint of latex. Alex learned to ignore that taste and figured a little latex is better than becoming a monster and preying on those that didn’t deserve to die at her hand because she was hungry. That just wasn’t in her personality. She sucked the last drop left and grabbed her keys. Alaska escorted Alex to the door. She petted his head and gave him a quick hug and head out the door towards her red 2010 Audi R8. She liked to keep to herself that doesn’t mean she had to be a hermit and drive a Taurus. She had the money and dammit she was gonna spend it. She got in, hooked up her iPod and embarked on the 45 minute trip to NYU where she majored in Music and Creative Writing and minored in Recorded Music.

Alex drove down the road and saw the familiar scenery that she passed on a daily basis. She looked out the window from time to time to see her surroundings morph from the woods where she lived, to the suburbs, to the city. It all seemed to morph gradually into one fluid motion as me she made her way to school. She took this way every day, but the beauty and serenity still amazed her to this day. It was peaceful and familiar. It was like peace morphing into the chaos that lingered within the city. Although chaotic, she loved the city; there was something about it that drew her to it like a moth to a flame. The pull of the allure was unimaginably strong and she had no idea why.

She finally made it onto campus and parked her car. When she got out it was still dark as she made her way to the Student Union. This is why she left so early. That way the sun wouldn’t bother her as she made her way to school. She never had to worry about the transition between classes because she was only exposed for no more than five minutes. She’d feel a little sick, as if she had heat stroke, than burst into flames. As she entered the building to go wait for the start of her first class she felt as if someone had been watching her. She turned to see that no one was there. Alex shrugged the feeling off. What was wrong with me? There usually wasn’t anyone here this early, so why was today any different? She asked herself in her head.

Alex shook her head to shake this creepy feeling that she had and started to walk down the long dark hallway. It smelled just like any college hallway. It smelled of paper, textbooks, fresh coffee and pen ink. Her highly sensitive sense of smell allowed her to have a different view of what school was, but she wasn’t going to dig. She didn’t want to taint this pure scent of innocence and higher learning. Just as she allowed herself to be swept away by the scent of the hallway she heard a whoosh behind her. She turned around again to see that there was nothing there. “Get it together Alex!” She whispered to herself. She kept walking until she reached the indoor bridge way between the two buildings. It was usually used by horny college students that wanted to get a little something before class. It was windowless and secluded and that gave her a bad feeling. Alex kept walking down the long hallway and then heard the automatic door open behind her. Alex didn’t bother turning this time; she figured that it was nothing just like the rest even though her gut told her something else. Suddenly the hallway went cold. She heard footsteps and they were coming up right behind her. They were just light enough that humans would’ve never heard them. She froze, scared of who was behind her. She could take whoever it was, but she didn’t like her time to herself interrupted. The footsteps were getting closer, the room got colder. In what seemed like no time at all she felt a cold breath on the back of her neck. The scent of the breath was familiar to her but the cold froze her and she couldn’t move. “Hello Alexandria.” a deep male voice hinted with a British accent, whispered into her ear from behind her. Who was this that called her by a name that she left behind so long ago? She turned around and gasped as she saw the face of the voice that had spoken to her. Now she was truly terrified.

Creativity Corner-One More thing On My Plate

As you know I'm a very creative person. I do Graphic Design, I draw and I'm currently working on a book. Well I got stuck on my book and really don't want to force any ideas out that would bring down the quality of the story. So with the push and bullying by my BFF and fellow blogger/writer/graphic designer Sabrina (@thinkin_ONPAPER) AKA Optimus Prime, BKA My Twin, I decided to start my own short story series named "Timeless." I figure taking a step back from the book will allow me to come up with some more fresh and original ideas. The first installment is called "Forever Is Too Long" will be posted shortly(after this post actually). I hope you guys like it. I will also post a list of songs that each installment was inspired by in hopes that you can get the feel of the story and can fully immerse yourselves in it to enhance your enjoyment. If you like it please feel free to comment here or on twitter. Thanks.

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YUUUP!-My 1st Trey Day!!

BET knows how to put together one hell of a show!!Keeping that in mind let me start from the beginning.

The day: Thursday October 15^th, 2009. The place: House of Blues Cleveland. The reason: BET Live Presents: The 106 n Park Tour. The goal: To see Trey Songz!! All of this was enough to make a girl restless! I couldn’t sleep the night before so I decided to do my hair and make my t-shirt for the show. After finishing that I went to sleep at 8am! I woke up at 1:45pm. It was showtime!!

It was cold and raining outside, but I knew this already because I diligently watched the weather for Thursday for a week. Just so I could be prepared for the journey that was upon me. I figured I’d stop at Subway and a corner store for a foot long sub and a pop on my way to the rapid station (Cleveland’s subway type thing). I figured I was going to be standing outside for a while so I decided that I needed something to eat and drink. Don’t ask why, I just like to b prepared. I was on a schedule; leave the house at 2:30 and catch the rapid at 2:57 and arrive downtown at 3:14. That was the plan and I was sticking to it. Being who I am I HAD to tweet my TTU/Twitter family about how I was leaving and not going to be on for a while. After I sent Trey a direct message welcoming him to my city (finally), I left my house at around 2:40. I thought to myself that I could still make my schedule. No! I missed the rapid because I went to Subway and had to stand behind the lady that didn’t know what she wanted. I wasn’t worried though. I planned for this, it’s just people make me angry. You don’t ever fit time for other people’s ignorance into your schedule. I head to the rapid station, IPod blaring nothing but Trey Songz to get me hyped up for my long wait ahead.

I arrived at the House of Blues at 3:40. I didn’t see anyone standing outside. So I walked around the block to make sure I was going to be standing in the right place, so I wouldn’t find out later I was in the wrong spot ad end up waaaayy in the back. On my walk around the block I passed the parking lot to the HOB, and that’s where I saw it. The reason I was there in the first place. The big orange tour bus…Trey Songz’ tour bus! After standing there in awe and snapping a quick picture, I noticed that the lights in the bus were on. Was he in there? Did he see me? Does he think I’m crazy for taking a picture of his tour bus? After my quick groupie moment I walked back to HOB. Just to make sure I would be standing in the right spot I decided to ask the guy who was out there putting the letters up on the marquee. He told me where to stand and I took my post.

There I stood for about 20 minutes. In that time I saw I saw a van full of back up dancers, Sean Garret’s assistant she asked me if I knew where a Louis Vuitton store was(I put 2 and 2 together when the Louis bags came out during the show). I even saw someone’s from Trey’s crew. There I stood, listening to music and anxious waiting for the time to past, while waiting under the sign awning to keep me dry from the rain. I found some people to hang out with in line. We were the first ones there and we were on a mission. I already gained their respect; we even talked about forming a chain in front of the doors so we could get up front. All that was shattered when I saw a little piece of paper saying that if you pay $15 they’ll let you wait in the restaurant and wait AND get in the music hall first!! What type of fuckery is that? We were pissed all of us didn’t have 15 extra damn dollars, tickets alone were $40!! I brushed it off and braved the cold and rain, “It’s all for Trey.” I told myself. That was my mantra. We all were anxiously waiting in the rain for 7:00 to come around. While I waited I mingled. It’s something about my personality that draws people to me. I don’t know what it is. I ate my sandwich and kept my pop full in case I needed to get gutta on some bishes!!lol. I kept it at the ready.

They didn’t let us in until 7:30-ish. Just like black folks! lol. They told us to form into three lines and that we had to take everything out of our pockets. They wanded us with those security wands and checked our purses. My hands were so frozen I had to ask the guard to open my purse for me. I walked into the music hall and I couldn’t believe I was finally there. When I walked in it was ok so far so good I thought. Then I saw it!!The crowd full of people that had that damn $15!!!Ugh. I found the people I was with outside and stood with them. It was packed and I mean packed. Everyone had something on someone. I chanted to myself that it was all for Trey and stood my ground. While we waited and listened to the really odd choice of wait music. People were trying to squeeze themselves past people to head towards the bar. Like come on I know you see there’s no room!!Finally after about 15-20 minutes of waiting Terrance J and Rocsi pop up on the screen. They introduce Sean Garret and he comes out and comes out hard! I wasn’t a fan of Sean Garret before the show but the man knows how to put on a show!!He had me screaming for him. Wtf? He threw out 2 Louis bags and came in the audience. When he came in everyone moved up and squished people to get close to him. I was thinking to myself yall go ahead and try to get closer, I’m just gonna take your spot to get closer to the front spot that was rightfully mine!! I may be goofy but I’m smart dammit!!lol.

After he did his set next it was Day 26. I again found myself in a different place that I was before. I didn’t care because I was closer to the stage. We waited for Day 26 and they opened with “Bi-Polar”. Love the song by the way!! Them boys did the damn thing!! Willie was lookin all good and when he took his shirt off I went crazy. Then another opportunity presented itself. Brian jumped into the crowd. He was like 20 people beside me! He was so close yet so far away! Anyway while the girls went to mob him on one end and Que on the other, I moved up. I wasn’t here solely for them; I was here mostly for Trey. When they were done I was beyond cramped. I’m so glad I wasn’t claustrophobic, but I hated that I was short.

Now it was Mario’s turn. Screen Terrance and screen Rocsi introduced Mario. I love Mario I really do and I was happy to see that he grew his hair back. He came out with his back up dancers and boy was he looking good. He had the whole crowd swag surfin. I hated swag n surf but I was doin the damn thing.lol. I tried my best to see throughout the whole show because some tallish tree girl stood in front of me so I could only see him if he was in the middle, all the while there was some girl crying hysterically because Mario was on stage. I mean hysterically, like someone died or something. She was about to pass out and kept screaming “I love you Mario”. He sang “Just a Friend”, “Braid My Hair”, “Let Me Love You”, “How Could You”, and some songs off of DNA. Break Up was cool. For “Braid My hair” he pulled a girl up on stage and sang to her. Being the Mario lover I am, I was hatin and hatin hard. Sean Garret came back out and did his part. And when Mario tried to sing his part he looked at him and said “If you stick to your part, I’ll stick to mine.” They finished out the set and my heart started to race. While we waited for Trey some of his promo people came out and started chaos by throwing posters. I wasn’t really pressed about the posters since I was just grateful to be there. Then they threw the cardboard cut out. I swear to you this thing was crowd surfing. Lol. It reached where I was and I held on to both sides for dear life. After realizing I had nowhere to put this big ol’ thing I let go. So the girl next to me got it. After she calmed down she looked and realized it was missing its head. Trey was headless! I later found out who had Trey’s head when he came on and I saw her waving it in the air! lmao.

Finally, it was Trey’s time now. People were leaving and I was moving up! I was in the dead center of the floor. No tall people in front of me. One of the girls I semi kind of knew was next to me and she was tall so she was like my support. The conditions were perfect. As we waited the tension within me built up. Then with one word it would all come to its peak. We chanted “Trey! Trey! Trey! Trey!”, then we heard it! “YUUUP!” I lost it! I was hysterical!! I was screaming like I was well, seeing Trey Songz for the first time! I was so full of joy and excitement, I started to cry. Not hysterical crying, just “Oh my god I can’t believe I’m about to see Trey” cry. The music plays. “U Belong to Me”, and for the next hour I was. I was all Trey’s and he was mine (in my head). The curtain opens and there he stood. As soon as he looked out into the crowd I almost died! This was what I was waiting for! I was screaming louder than anybody else. That’s when it happened. I don’t remember what song it was but when Trey first reached the middle, I guess he noticed me in a sea full of people and looked me dead in my eyes and smiled. I screamed and wanted to faint. I don’t know if he thought I was a super fan or recognized me from Twitter, but he looked at me and only me. I thought I was going crazy. Trey did his thing. Black Roses came on and I lost my mind because that’s my song. I sang and YUUUP!’d like I never have before in my life. He sang “Gotta Make It” ad he looked at me again!! Actually throughout his whole set he would glance at me when he reached the middle of the stage. It wasn’t anything sexual; it was like “I know you’re a fan and I see you” type of look. Then some groupie type stuff happened. I knew it was going to happen but not by me! This girl threw her panties on stage when “Panty Droppa” came on! She actually took off her panties that she was wearing and threw them on stage. Then had the heffaskank yelled “I threw my panties at you Trey”. I laughed at the desperateness of her actions and went on about the show. When he did “Say Ahh” I was looking out for Yonny, my hometown hero. He didn’t come on stage, but I did see him. He came out when everybody was doin their thing and just wildin out. Samiyyah ad Najja did their thing. Najja was looking sexier than ever with his big ol’ dimple. Lol. Then Lol J came on and I was so happy. Yonny was on stage and looked a little stiff! Not the same Yonny we’ve seen on Ustream goin ham with his dance and his go ham shades!!I screamed for Yonny and went on about my merry time. Trey did a few more songs and then it happened. “Yo Side” started to play. I knew this was the end but I didn’t care. This man entertained me for the night and it was finally coming to a close. As soon as he said “Every time she leaves it’s my heart that she’s taking from me” I burst into tears. I tried to record it but my arm was getting tired. The tall girl next to me offered to record it for me. After the guitar solo my phone died. Which was ok since I loved that part anyway. When Trey was done he did his bows and walked off stage. Everyone thought he was done, but I knew he wasn’t. We all shouted for Trey and he came back out. He ran out shirtless!! Now my night was complete! He ran out and thanked everyone and bowed and blew kisses. He knew he put on a show and we loved I, and he wanted to show he loved us back. True Trey fashion. He got down on his knees and thanked us. I cried slightly knowing that I was here with him (sorta) on this journey from day 1 and here he was. Both of us rewarded for our hard work for each other. He looked at me, like he did throughout his set, and blew a kiss my way. If you weren’t paying attention you wouldn’t have caught it, but I did. Trey seemed as if he didn’t wanna leave, but he had to go right now. Lol. His set was finally over and he left the stage. I had to stand there for 10 minutes after the show just to collect myself and to make sure that this really just happened. I walked out of the House of Blues on Cloud YUUUP! Lol. I was so high off of the night that I forgot that my feet hurt. I walked to the rapid station playing “LOL J”,a perfect ending to a perfect night. I met up with 1 of the girls I stood in line with and we rode home together.

This overall experience for me was great. I had fun, my spot wasn’t too bad, and of course Trey!! I did learn that if I ever go back to the HOB I’m bringing an extra $15 just in case. Lol. But I got tons of pictures and videos that I’m going to post to Twitter soon. I personally want to thank Jasmine (@Lady3077). If it wasn’t for her and her genuine love for a fellow TTU sister, I wouldn’t have been able o have one of the best nights of my life. I had enough fun for all of TTU and I must have repped good enough to get Trey to look at me like he did! Well there’s my story I hope you enjoyed it, and I’m sorry it’s so long, but I wanted to paint a picture for those that weren’t as fortunate as me to experience the show.

Creativity Corner-Vivie the Beat Maker?

I know what you're thinking."She writes.She sings.She draws and does computer graphics.And now she produces?"Well actually I do.Over the past 24 hours I've been through a lot of crap. I didn't quite know how to express it all. Then it hit me.Let it out through music.So I decided to dip my feet back into the producing pool again.I say again because I've secretly produced 2 tracks before my most current one. Here I have posted all three of my self produced tracks using stock sounds from the free trial version of Acoustica Mixcraft 4.I love this program, and if I could buy the whole thing I would, but that's why I want a MacBook more than ever because it has producing software pre-installed.These three tracks are all different.There's one that's a punk rock track,one that's a rock power ballad,and another is a slow r&b track.Hope you like them as much as I do.
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