"Forgotten to Only be Remembered"

Alex looked out her window. It was very cloudy outside. It looked as if someone threw a grey down feather comforter across the sky. The sun tried it’s hardest to shine, but to no avail. This weather was perfect for vampires that had to go out during the daytime. The sun didn’t bother Alex as much as it did others, and she didn’t know why. All she knew was other vamps tried to avoid the sun and would get sores that resemble sunburns and get sick, some would burst into flames. It was a change thing and she really didn’t understand it. What she did understand was that she was different, the sun just hurt her eyes a little and made her a little dizzy, but it was tolerable. She was thinking about her life and everything happening now, and started to feel anxious. Alex started breathing heavily and with a whoosh was out the window. Xander, worried that his sister had run away jumped out the window and landed feet first on the soft ground below. He landed so gracefully, it was almost as if he floated down. Alex had always been faster than he was, so he couldn’t just run after her. Xander sniffed the air and then moved back away from the house and looked up. There was Alex, walking on the roof of the house, treating the line where the two sides connected as a tightrope with stiletto heels on. She looked so carefree and happy.

“Lex, get down! You’re just showin’ off!” Xander yelled with a smile.

“Oh stop! You’re just mad I beat you up here.” She yelled back laughing.

“Now Lex!”Xander commanded. There he was using that “older brother” voice. Alex then jumped down from the roof and with a flip and landed on her feet in front of her brother. She moved the hair out her face and smiled.

“There you happy you party pooper?” Alex said as she made her best spoiled little girl pout.

“Very.” Xander smiled. “So what’s with this John guy?” he asked seriously. Alex’s body stiffened. She looked at her brother intensely and muttered “Nothing. He’s just a guy who’s a friend.”

“Didn’t seem like that to me. Lex, are you sure you can have a human boyfriend again?” he asked seriously. She hated when he’d pop her little bubble of fantasy. In a perfect world she could be with John without worrying that she was going to rip his throat out, but this wasn’t a perfect world, and she was still dangerous to everyone living and undead.

“No one’s saying that I want to be with John, and neither is John. We’re just friends and that’s it. Yeah he’s cute, but I’ve learned my lesson from Jacques. I’m not going back there. I’m uncontrollable, and that makes me dangerous. I get that.” She said sullenly. Can’t blame a girl for dreaming. She thought to herself.

“Hey, I’m just lookin’ out for you. I don’t want you to turn back into who you were before either. I know things are hard for you, but I’m proud of you. No one said life was easy.” Xander said. He then grabbed Alex and hugged her. She hated that he was right, but it was for the best.

Alex heard something from afar and jumped. She was back on the roof in an instant. She looked out towards the road that was far from her house. She didn’t see anything, she grew tired of looking over her shoulder to see if Damian had shown up to ruin her life some more. Feeling drained again she laid down and looked towards the cloudy sky. She lay perfectly still, as if she was a fixture of the roof, and let her thoughts consume her.

“You’re in the middle of a huge mess.” She said aloud to herself. “How are you going to sort all this out AND deal with Damian?” Her life was upside down and was bound to get crazier. She was scared to close her eyes, afraid of the images and memories her sub conscious decided to bring up now. She was still a little shaken from the Jacques dream. Laying on the roof was the only thing that made her feel sane and in control. It was the only thing that made sense right now.

As she thought to herself she felt the time pass. When 6:30 pm rolled around, she shot up and jumped down from the roof. She was lucky she landed so softly, because Gucci boots weren’t cheap. Alex walked through the door to see Xander watching TV in the living room. She looked over at him and noticed Alaska was lying next to him on the couch with his head in his lap. Alaska never got along easily with anyone. Guess she senses something about Xander. Alex thought as she headed upstairs. When she reached her room she hopped in the shower and changed. She was wearing dark blue jeans, thigh high black stiletto boots. She loved theses boots they had studs on the buckles and the trim. She had on her favorite red shirt. She loved it because it showed enough cleavage to get attention without looking like a slut. She grabbed her leather jacket and headed downstairs. Xander took one look at her and blocked the door before she could reach it.

“And where do you think you’re goin’ dressed liked that?!” he asked wide eyed. Alex looked herself and up and down and laughed.

“This is nothing. I’m goin’ out to see a friend.” She made sure she emphasized the word “friend” .

“Umm I don’t know about you, but I’ve been around for a while and I’ve never seen any girl go out in her ‘freak me now’ now boots and her ‘look but can’t touch’ shirt!” Alex laughed at her brother. She loved seeing his reaction and also the fact that he said “freak me now boots” made her giggle.

“You forgot my ‘look at my apple bottom booty’ jeans.” Alex laughed then looked at Xander. He looked so serious but Alex could tell he was holding back from laughing. “Move from in front of the door.” She requested sweetly.

“No.” Xander said sternly. A sly smile appeared on Alex’s face and she crouched in an attack position. She didn’t like being told no.

“Move, Xander.” Alex demanded as she let out a growl.

“No, and don’t think you scare me. I’m not scared of you.” He smiled a slick smile and crossed his arms.

“You don’t have to be scared. I’m stronger and faster. Do you really want to test me?” Alex threatened.

“Ugh! Fine! Just be careful will ya?” he said as he moved from the door.

“Of course. Always. See ya later.” Alex smiled as she put on her jacket and headed out the door, car keys in hand. She climbed into her car and drove off while Xander stood in the doorway. He worried about his sister; he had no choice but to. Xander closed the door and looked at Alaska, who was looking at him confused. He sat down next to him and Alaska put his head on his leg and looked up at him. Xander petted his head. “I’m worried about her too. This is how she acted the last time. I just hope this time she can control herself. Damian here isn’t going to help either.” He told Alaska. They both looked at each other, and as if Alaska could comprehend what Xander just told him, let out a whimper.

Alex looked around the food court and saw John standing and waving at her. If she could blush she would have. She walked over to him trying to seem normal with a little dash of sexy. As soon as she was in eye range she felt heads turn to her she might as well have been walking in slow motion. She looked at John and saw his eyes widen he quickly tried to shake it off b4 she reached the table. Alex smiled a smile to herself and walked over to him.

“Hey John.” She greeted confidently.

“Umm hey Alex.” John stumbled. He tried to look and sound cool but he couldn’t keep his eyes from examining every inch of her body. Alex looked around as if she didn’t feel John’s eyes traveling her body. She smiled at him.

“John, are you feeling ok?” she asked with a smile.

“Huh? Yeah, I’m good. You look nice today. You don’t look too sick to me.” He said coolly. If she didn’t know better, she’d think he was flirting.

“Thanks.” She said as she sat down. She looked down on the table and saw a whole pizza and a notebook.

“I bought some pizza. Hope you don’t mind. I’d just figure you’d want to eat and I heard Pizza Hut was your favorite.” How did he know you liked Pizza Hut? Hmm maybe you told him before. She thought.

“Thanks. I could eat a little. That was nice of you.” She smiled and grabbed a slice of pizza. She looked down and saw that the pizza was pepperoni and pineapple stuffed crust, her favorite. How the heel did he know this? I never told him this. She thought to herself. She didn’t know that she was holding the slice of pizza and looking very confused. John smiled at her and spoke.

“Before you get too creped out, I saw you scribble it in your notebook one time when I had to borrow your notes. I like reading what you write in your margins. Some of it’s funny and some are really thought provoking. I look forward to them whenever I borrow your notebook. Speaking of notebooks…” He smiled nervously and passed her his. “I already bookmarked the page where today’s notes start.

“Thanks. You didn’t have to.” She smiled. They talked and ate pizza for hours. This isn’t so hard. This is actually pretty easy. This might be able to work. Alex thought. She was deep in her thoughts of what could be and then John grabbed her hand across the table. She could feel John’s pulse, slow and steady. He was relaxed around her. She could feel the blood flowing through his body. She could smell him and he smelled delicious. Like chocolate covered strawberries. Alex’s body stiffened and her eyes widened as she got flashbacks of her past, about Jacques, and about Damian. She was then shot back into reality and quickly moved her hand. She looked up and across the cafeteria she saw Damian. He was smiling at her and waved. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath and looked again. He was gone. Had he really been there watching her? If he was, how long had he been there? Alex looked at John in the eyes and saw that he looked hurt. Alex quickly gathered her things and his notebook and stood up suddenly.

“Alex, are you ok? Was it something I did?” John asked concerned. Alex wanted to tell him that she was ok and he was ok, but she couldn’t she had to leave, especially if Damian was watching her.

“No. It’s not you. I’m fine, promise. I have to go. I’m not feeling too good. Thanks for the notes and the pizza. I’ll see you tomorrow in class.” Alex told him hastily. She sounded afraid. She left quickly out of the food court with John looking confusedly after her.

“What the hell just happened?!” Alex said aloud to herself in the car as she drove home. She tried to collect herself as best as she could, but it just wasn’t working. Her thoughts raced through her just as the scenery around her had. Before she knew it she was home and in her driveway. She turned off her car and just sat there. As much as she tried to push what happened out of her mind, she couldn’t. She saw Damian. She knows she did. Alex gathered herself and went straight upstairs to her room, Alaska trotted close behind her with Xander. Xander knocked on her door and let Alaska in.

“Lex, are you okay?” he asked concerned. He worried a lot about his sister.

“Yeah I’m fine. What makes you think anything is wrong?” she asked sounding a little frazzled.

“Lex, I’m your twin. I can feel when you’re happy or stressed, or anything. Was it that John guy?”

“No! I’m just a little stressed out from school right now. I missed a lot today, so I’m behind.” She lied.

“Oh ok. If you need me I’m downstairs. Ok?”

“Yeah, thanks Xander.”She hated lying to her brother, but she couldn’t tell him yet. She didn’t even know what was going on herself. She couldn’t tell Xander what she knew, not until she figured out what was going on. She looked down on her bed and looked at John’s notebook. She felt a small tug on what was supposed to be her heart and picked up her phone. John called three times and left a voicemail. She called her voicemail and listened to his message.

“Hey, Alex it’s John. I don’t know what happened, but I was just calling to see if you were ok. So when you get this can you call me back please so I can know you’re ok. Thanks. Bye.” Alex smiled. He didn’t think she was weird, he was just worried. She sent John a text saying: I’m ok. Thanx 4 caring. I’m gonna to get sum rest. See u 2morrow. Alex the n grabbed his notebook and copied the notes until she fell asleep. Xander stopped by her room and covered his sister with a blanket and laid her in her bed the way she usually slept, turned off the light, and left.

It was around 2am when Alex felt a breeze on her sleeping body from her open bedroom window. Her mind awakened slightly to register that she closed the window earlier. She mentally shrugged it off and pulled the covers closer to her. The room had gotten colder, and there was a slight feeling of something dark in the room. A dark shadowy figure with crimson eyes stood at the foot of her bed. He smiled and his fangs glowed in the moonlight. He laughed to himself about the fact that she was unaware of his presence. Damian walked over to the side of her bed. He climbed stealthily into her bed and lay next to her and watched her sleep. She looks so peaceful. Damian thought as he looked down at his long lost love. He got up and walked to the other side of the bed. He looked at her bedside table and found the necklace he had given her long ago in the top drawer. Damian smiled an evil smile and bent over her. He whispered into the ear of the sleeping Alex, a whisper so cold that it sent a chill up Alex’s spine; one word that would stir her in her sleep.

“Remember.” Then he left and closed the window behind him and disappeared into the night.

Remember.